Personality Type, Ego, and the Self

Who am I building this website? 

How do I look building this website? 

One question regarding mySelf, the other regarding my ego.

I think of the ego as the part of the psyche in charge of all things hunter gatherer tribal about us. While the survival system is actively running, the ego is in charge, and the ego wants to stay dissociated. 

It's each of our own jobs to direct the ego to follow the higher idealized choice in Self healing vs. the impulse provoked choice in self destruction; and this is where we do our heaviest lifting. 

Anyone's can be described as having a healthy ego, an unhealthy ego, a strong ego, or a weak ego. As long as we are in our physical bodies, we have an ego programmed into the operating system. 

The important thing is understanding we are not our ego, no matter what condition it happens to be running in. We are something far greater than the egoic mind has the ability to comprehend.  

I'm sharing this information to talk point out the differences between the lower impulsive survival part of ourselves as, myself/ourself; with a lower case s. As well as the higher idealized part of mySeilf / ourSelves with a capital S.  

The Self is the observer of all of this before any of the words explaining it come into play. 

I am the overseer of my survival and higher mind operations. 

I am sometimes disoriented by them, but I am getting better at recovering present moment awareness and Self control from them. 

I am the conscious controlling overseer of my thoughts and emotions happening, 

There is no need to attack, defend, or explain by the Self. The ego feels compelled to attack, defend, and explain to help ensure tribal survial, the Self does not. 

An even deeper condition humans experience is we create a sense of identity out of the circumstances of our lives, missing the realization we are energetically something far greater than the human mind the capacity to comprehend (I myself included have experienced this). 

This is a common challenge people face with retirement at the end of their careers terrified, lost, anxious, depressed, confused, overwhelmed at who they will be when they are no longer working there. 

Be it job title, relationship status, the ego is the identity of the survival mind, and you can hear when we the survival mind is operating from this state. Listen for the words spoken after, "I am" when people introduce themselves. 

You'll hear thing like: 

Hi, my name's Joe, I'm a cop. 

Hi, my name's Susie, I'm a firefighter.

Hi, my name's Ryan, I'm a engineer

Hi, my name's Steve, I'm a teacher

Hi my name's Kelly, I'm a realtor

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The list of the possible egoic identities is endless

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None of it is who we are

Who We are is something far more 

All titles are the ego operating tribally

All titles are made up for people by other people

Who we are is before any of the words come into play

Identifying the ego is a lot for anyone to do

It also does not make it spotting it any less valid

Realize we ourSelves are something far greater than the ego

Having worked in numerous career occupations, I have seen this same pattern of the ego repeated consistently over seemingly different worlds.

In the Army, I fixed guns, I met countless career soldiers, with social status by rank in on the enlisted side, social status by rank on the officer side, and social status by rank in between in the warrant officer class. Does this make me a veteran?

In law enforcement, I worked patrol, forensically processed crime scenes, worked in an undercover capacity, met countless career officers, detectives, special agents, district attorneys, etc. Does this make me a cop?

On the railroad, I worked as switchman, freight train conductor, got my locomotive engineer's license, I met countless career, "Railroaders" who had their sense of self identity mistaken for being a, "Hogger" (locomotive engineer) or a, "Trainmaster" (company supervisor). Does this make me a railroader?

When I worked in real estate, I met countless career realtors, investors, contractors, etc. who all had their own specific areas of the market they worked in, inside of their own little worlds. Does this make me a real estate investor?

I have traded stocks and options, and there are countless people in the community who refer to themseves as, "Traders", there are "Brokers" there are educators, trainers, scalpers, again the names go on and on for the identities the ego makes. Does this make me a trader?

I have been working on a book, does that make me a writer? There are plenty of authors in the world who would tell me yes, and publishers who would agree with them. 

I am creating this website, does this make me a website creator, or am I someone who is creating this website? 

Seeing how I have been a soldier, a police officer, a railroader, a real estate investor, a trader, a writer, a trader, and a website creator, if I can not be all of them at once, then I am none of them at all.

The ego is everywhere; and it's okay, so long as we learn to, spot it,  work with it, and realize it is not who we are, 

A rule of thumb I use when considering egoic identity is; 

If I were laying on my deathbed looking back on my life, would the problem in my mind matter, and would the identity I have wrapped aroud it be who I am in my true and highest form as God put me here on earth, knowing I am going home? 

If not, then it's ego. 

This is a normal part of our human operation, so long as our bodies are alive, we have an ego operating. The bigger question is who are we that is aware we have an ego operating? 

This is the question to ask ourselves and sit with.