Stress Distorts Our Perspective

If you have PTSD, it's not a matter of if your mind goes to a dark place, it's a matter of when, how intensely, and for how long. And it's also a matter of recovering conscious control of our mind when it goes there, and rescuing it. 

We must rescue our own mind in this scenario, and we can do it. It very much helps to have others around who realize presence and can hold an anchored state of presence for you to join them in. 

  know what's going on and understand how to help you recover out of flashback, but ultimately its you doing the work of regaining higher mind operation and awareness after stress charges shut them off.

 Sometimes our perceptive awareness gets stuck, psychologically stumbling around in emotionally charged memories that feel so real, we lose track of the fact they are memories in the first place. 

Trauma produces the feeling of shame, however the paradox is, there is no shame in trauma. This doesn't prevent the biological feelings produced to knock our perceptive awareness into unconscious survival based operation. 

I've dealt with, recovered from, and will always be recovering from lots of psychological trauma from processing crime scenes. However, no matter how extreme the examples I can provide, the system we're dealing with is the same. 

Lots of people deal with psychological trauma to some degree, but most are afraid of ever talking about it, due to the fear of death by tribal rejection for being perceived as weak. 

Recovering from trauma comes with a profound realization that no matter what, nothing in our minds can kill us, it only feels like it can. 

Once we're able to demystify some of the happenings in the mind, we're able to transcend through the mind, observe it, and heal from the turmoil it's created. . 

What we can do is break our perceptive awareness out of places it had been stuck in, even if it had been stuck there so long it became familiar and somehow uncomfortably comfortable. 

The toughest question I've ever been asked was in Intensive OutPatient PTSD treatment, and the question was, "Who am I?" without any titles, accomplishments, stories, etc, who am I? 

This question got the wheels turning, but I was unable to answer it until well after therapy, however in order to answer the question, "Who am I?" I had to first answer the question, "What am I?" 

The answer came to me after diving into  lessons about quantum physics geared for the layman, Realizing the essence of Albert Einstein's famous equation E=Mc2. 

The calculation E=Mc2 takes much more into consideration than I know how to calculate, but it takes into consideration the physical makeup of our smallest physical building blocks, atoms. Inspecting them from the subatomic level. 

Atoms are too small to be seen with the naked eye, however we were able to make one large enough to inspect and we were able to freeze time, we would see they are made of almost nothing, as our physical senses perceive physical matter. 

Atoms, are physically made of tiny bits of energy known as protons, neutrons, and electrons. The protons are positively charged, neutron are neutrally charged and act as the glue that holds the protons in a bundle, creating the positively charged nucleas of the atom, and electrons are negatively charged bits of energy that orbit the nucleus.

Okay, now that 11th grade science is passed, what does any of this mean, and how does it apply to me in my everyday life?

 If what we perceive as physical matter is not actually physical at all, then what is it, and who am I realizing and observing it all?

This comes down to a realization of ourselves in operation of it all. The mind derives a sense of self identity somewhere, and the easiest place to find something to grasp onto the what we perceive in our physical world, including the bodies of ourselves, the cars we drive, the house we live in, how much money we have, etc. the possibilities are endless, and ultimately all empty. 

We've never actually experienced the past or the future, it seems like we have, but it was all the mind working from the starting location of the present moment. 

We are none of these things in the physical world, and can never be, however that does not prevent the mind from reaching for them as an answer, even a temporary answer,  until it can figure out a more clear and definitive answer of where to derive a sense of self identify from. 

We are not our trauma, we are not our story, and we are not who we were yesterday. We all have a past, and stories from it, but we are present, and we are not the future. We can direct our present moment actions to align with what and who we would like to be in the future, but once we get there it will be this same present moment we experience it from.  

Our universe is made of energy and matter, we are in space and time in it, we have an inner world and an outer world.  Our only job is realizing this.

Knowing all of this, we can consciously direct the orchestration of physical matter in our outer world to align with what we consciously realize within. 

This all comes from an understanding, and will power shuts it down, with the essence of collapsing the wave into particle. 

Our own personal best is something we can all attain, and when we do we merely take the actions we know can produce it, trust ourselves, and experience it happen.. 

What we can do is create the circumstances that make it possible and more probable that our personal best happens, and  show up ready and willing to participate in it. 

Once we can see something inside we can do it outside. 

The mind likes to sharply reject this, and it's important to understand that the organism producing this thought stream is the same organ that produces the thought stream of, "I've gotta see it to believe it" all while remaining unaware that humans can see less than half of one percent of the electromagnetic spectrum, .about 0035% according to science. 

There's so much more going on than our senses can perceive, and we can move beyond out senses to work with it. All outer change begins from within. 

If we're performing a task, it's important to observe ourselves in action of it, not just physically, but psychologically and emotionally. 

Does the idea of someone else's approval and praise come to mind while we're working? if so, this is production at best, and not creativity. 

Creativity happens from within and where our personal best comes from. There is no comparison between you and anyone else who has ever lived. 

Realize the minds natural compulsion to place ourselves in comparison with anyone else as tribal based thinking. When we realize yourself as a stand alone entity to all else, and focus on each action you're taking in the expression of whatever you choose to do with this power you possess.